Saturday, July 25, 2009

Difference a Phone Call Makes....

Tonight my dear friend Tina (a military wife herself ~ Miss YOU!!!!) called to check in on me and it really helped me put things into perspective, sometimes when you think you have it really don't.

My weight has been fluxuating lately and we have some family drama going on (which I won't go into) AND summer slacking is here so i've noticed bad habits die hard. What a breath of fresh air to hear that Tina thinks I am an inpiration to her and others, WOW!!!!

That makes me want to work harder, exactly what I need to DO!!!!!! I normally have a happy-to-lucky cheery disposition but it's been missing lately.....let's fix that NOW!!!

Starting tomorrow my butt is back into the gym (yay) and no more staying inside the house to work around naps or housework ~ use it before you lose it!!!!!!!!


Friday, July 24, 2009


I need it in my mind, body and soul.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Dealing with Sadness....

There are so many things going on/around in my life right now and I feel a terrible blanket of sadness covering me.

Since I woke up this morning I can't shake this feeling of breaking down into tears over everything, I just want it to stop and feel normal.

I know how to make myself happy again but it will hurt the ones I love the most.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

A Year Ago Today.....

I woke up very nervous, worried that my life would end ~ but that part of my life DID end a a wonderful new one begun!!!!!!!!

Yes, I had Roux-En-Y Gastric Bypass surgery a year ago today, I did it to save my life. For the better part of 20 years I struggled with my weight, my highest (non-pregnant weight) was 275 but I ballooned up to 300 when I delivered Colin.

With that weight I also struggled with the verge of stroke complications which forced me to deliver our last baby (Edward) prematurely, it was the wake-up call I needed to change my life. I refused to be that obituary in the paper or the youngest patient in the nursing home.

I literally had no idea how much I was missing out on life, although I wore rose colored glasses most of the time I did not see myself as "that obese", really I was morbidly obese.....morbidly obese. I never imagined in my life that I would be that way, but who does?????

So a year later, I am at a NORMAL weight and a NORMAL BMI. All my co-morbidites are gone (stroke risk, diabetes etc). I've lost 115 pounds forever with those final pesky 5 pounds left to go, LOL!!!!

So is it easy now a year later???? Well, yes and no. I will forever have to watch what I eat ~ I have easily fallen into the trap of eating whatever I want and have had to pay the price ~ so many GBS patients do. I always have to remind myself that food is my fuel but along the way I have found delicious alternatives, i'm not missing out on anything.

Thanks to everyone that has supported me along the way, my family that has been my guinea pigs on new recipes (LMAO) and also my rock during some scary times this year (bowel obstruction surgery), I will never regret saving my life with this surgery, NEVER!

I will add some pics later today to share my journey!!!