Monday, March 30, 2009

Swim Time....

Tonight I am taking the babies to the local community center and go swimming with some friends. Della gets the most out of swimming, she loves it however Edward has some room for growth in that department, LOL he is attached to my hip the whole time.

I bought a new swimsuit, my first new one in at least 4 years, which is a size 8 WOW! Although the Hubs says I look good in it (his exact words were, "You look DAMN GOOD", I feel very self conscience about it....I wish I "felt" that I looked as good as he says I do but again it's taking some time for my brain to catch up to my body.

Also something to work on.......I'm getting there. Oh yeah!!! My before/after pics are now profiled on Obesity Help, go here to see:

I am sooo proud! :D


Sunday, March 29, 2009

Family Walk

What a NICE walk we had tonight, I think the last time we took a walk together as a family was back in Omaha before we moved.....what a breath of fresh air literally!

Starting up water aerobics again this week at the Burg's Community Center with a price that can't be beat, it was free while we were in Offutt but the times here are better so what's a girl to do?!?


Friday, March 27, 2009


Okay, Day 5 and then I'm done! Today is my MOPS meeting at church and wouldn't ya know it that they serve super sweet treats to us (i.e. donuts, cakes, brownies etc.) all the nasty little critters that I know I SHOULD NOT have.

I ate some oatmeal this morning and I am prepared mentally but I'm hoping not to lend temptation a little go-ahead card either.

I am STRONGER than anything that comes at ME!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, March 26, 2009


I am back baby!!!! This morning I weighed in at 168, a new low WOO-FREAKING-HOO!!!! So that is an 11 pound difference since Sunday (3/22), amazing!

I FINALLY GET IT! I was doing things *my way* and guess doesn't work! Yes I can eat anything I want but I threw all moderation out the window while on vacation ~ this really opened my eyes to what I was doing to my body.

I was fooling myself thinking I could get the proper amount of nutrition and protein from food ~ I MUST HAVE protein supplements, the weight has never come off so fast before, and to think I could have been done with this journey A LOT SOONER if I could have realized this before, sheesh!

So.....13 more pounds to go! I can't wait to be done!!!!!


Tuesday, March 24, 2009

170 Again....

Okay so back to familiar territory ~ but the fear is still in me. Thanks everyone for your sweet comments, I guess I was being too hard on myself but knowing that failure could happen messed with me bigtime ~ I needed a little taste of that to get me back in line.

So, I am praying that I am 169 tomorrow and falling, maybe this is just what I needed to get to my goal weight?!?


Day 2 Going Well....

Okay, so when I came home Sunday night I weighed 179!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about a HUGE shock but I know that most of that weight was water retention from all the salt I had taken in over the prior week.

The weight is almost all gone, I have 2 pounds to go to get back to where I was (169) but I do NOT want to be here again EVER!!!!!

I love making these changes, I started tracking my intake at which I think is a HUGE help to get back to KNOWING exactly what I am putting into my body.....awareness is key!

I am glad that this happened, glad that I can make these changes and not feel defeated and just give different from a year ago when that would have been the only outcome.

Thank you GOD for giving me this tool and the trials that come along with it, I know I am becoming a stronger person because of it!


Monday, March 23, 2009

Stopping the Nonsense!!!!

I've found myself spiraling out of control with snacking lately. My metabolism is running so high these days so instead of fueling my body the RIGHT way I have been backsliding and putting TERRIBLE stuff into my body (chips, cookies, crackers).

Those terrible culprits are to blame for a SHOCK when I got onto the scale when I got home so I find in necessary to make immediate change and started an all protein liquid diet for 2 weeks to shock my system and myself back into healthier habits.

HOLY CRAP it's easy to fall off that horse, I've done sooooooo wonderfully well all this time but it didn't take much time to get out of control and lose the "eat to live" way of thinking, YIKES!!!!!

So, starting this morning I am only using my protein drinks as nourishment throughout the day.....I should be drinking them everyday so I don't have to rely on food as my only source of protein ~ this is the way that it should have been from the start, I was only kidding myself when I thought I could do it "my way"

WTF was I thinking?!? Seriously! I haven't been to the gym in is becoming more challenging to get there these days so I need to give myself the "long talk" about what I excpect from myself, what I want for the rest of my life, why did I come on this journey only to sludge along. I know, I know....I've lost 100+ pounds and I am DAMN proud but to see myself deviating from the path that I know leads to success makes me feel like a failure.

So, back to liquids for me. I AM GOING TO MAKE THIS WORK!!! I do not need food to nourish my body right now, I need protein, protein protein and I plan on getting all that I need from the protein shakes. In this period of relection I am going to change the foods that I was using daily (beef jerky) as my main source of nourishment, wwwwaaaaaay too high in sodium and although it was a good source of protein I could have been eating healthier foods.

Okay, I guess I am done with my rant. I could really use some words of encouragement so if you are reading this give me a shout out with love or a good slap back into reality, LOL!

Love to everyone!


Tuesday, March 10, 2009


I was in the 170's for the longest amount of time (December - March) so it was a JOYOUS moment when I saw this:

Goodbye 170's!!!!!!

New Weight Loss Goals:

14 More Pounds = Goal
16 More Pounds = Hitting Century Mark 2nd time (100 pounds lost after surgery)

I have been so down about my weight loss slowing down but all of a sudden it took off again, realistically it might be awhile before I lose weight again but I am loving this feeling.

I will lose another 14 pounds, it's just a matter of time

Saturday, March 7, 2009


Wow! I am getting so close now to my final goal of hitting my ideal weight of 155 which is now 15 pounds away, yippeeeee!!!!!!

Been extremely busy lately, I hope to be updating more soon! ;)